The desert is a place of endless contemplation, and tart advice. There is life here, and, though different, nevertheless has lessons to teach such that might even bring a smile to a saint’s face. How do we describe a culture of sand, when we speak the language of water? The emptier the place you serve, the more abundant will be your belongings. We are leaving you, but our departure is such that our robe is sweeping all the dust on the floor as we depart. I can’t make you us, but wherever we go, let the words be etched into stones, that, much like a time capsule, one day the seeds of civilization will nourish themselves with such symbols. May the sand dunes of my country be reflected in my eyes whenever you look at me, its endless skies embellish the air around me. We don’t bow towards you, we prostrate ourselves. For inevitably, the line beyond the Kaaba to which we lower ourselves is almost always the new world. My tongue is tempted to say the word that would render me a foreigner, but the visage of my face should be enough to do that for me. We can only invite you to Majesty; it’s up to you to take up that challenge.
This is difficult. Years and years of suffering has made the possibilities of feeling peace, even in the absence of sources of agony, well nigh impossible. Am I doomed to be a prisoner of my emotions forever, unable to feel contentment because I am too busy obsessing over why I failed instead of promoting my future. I feel sad, because people have caused me inhuman harm, and simply ignoring that and living my life now is not easy, I just wanted to feel peace, and now that the possibility is here I ignore it and instead spend my time thinking as to why I have been prevented from feeling it in the past, something, which of course has no answer. All I can do is mourn, perhaps because peace is not really a fundamental human right, even though the pursuit of it is. I must remind myself that I am not strange in feeling this way, for at the end of a bloody war, who in an entire country can claim to feel immediate peace? Such a task is not human, and emotional wounds take time to heal. ...
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