As time passes, we wonder more and more what truly makes someone a citizen of a country. Some people live in a country whom they despise to their bones, whereas others are willing to die even for an ant in one they don’t belong to. I wish I could lie to myself, but I truly do have a split mind, for my loyalty lies to two countries, not one. What trouble I have faced in one, it is by serving the interests of the other. England and Arabia. We can’t say more, other than that our internal struggles will determine the will of the countries. I want to bleed diamonds, and sweat gold for you. The world has not experienced a mite of your true potential. You grasped, to civilize. Shrinking now only means you will civilize further in the future. You are the servant that exists in the shimmering of a man’s mind, for your body can only be protected by swords made of compassion, and determination. I know I wasn’t born then, but I take full responsibility for any setbacks you might have had an the past, and it is my duty now to make it up to you, through service. In terms of millenia, we are a mere butterfly, but we will make your garden beautiful.
This is difficult. Years and years of suffering has made the possibilities of feeling peace, even in the absence of sources of agony, well nigh impossible. Am I doomed to be a prisoner of my emotions forever, unable to feel contentment because I am too busy obsessing over why I failed instead of promoting my future. I feel sad, because people have caused me inhuman harm, and simply ignoring that and living my life now is not easy, I just wanted to feel peace, and now that the possibility is here I ignore it and instead spend my time thinking as to why I have been prevented from feeling it in the past, something, which of course has no answer. All I can do is mourn, perhaps because peace is not really a fundamental human right, even though the pursuit of it is. I must remind myself that I am not strange in feeling this way, for at the end of a bloody war, who in an entire country can claim to feel immediate peace? Such a task is not human, and emotional wounds take time to heal. ...
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