The soldiers of destiny are busy sawing away at my arteries, for I threw away food a few days ago, and god only knows I will be bludgeoned to death for it. Deny me my right to respect you, because the speed with which I can learn serves to painfully accentuate my suffering. Go to your churches, for I lack the instinctive appetite to enable you to stay peppy without such visits. I am going to suffer, because if a product does not scream halal to me I will faint on the spot due to sheer homelessness. The closer you march to your Mars, the more bricks we will lay for our mosque on the moon. You call yourself an entrepreneur, but what kind of entrepreneur are you, if you stand complacent with socialist scientists, instead of capitalistic ones? In our opinion, we prefer to create theories, then base products on them, rather than mixing socialistic science with capitalistic entrepreneurialism. Socialistic science is university science, which does not starve you to death if your theories are not powerful. Stop leeching off scientists, and be a scientist yourself, instead of a mere tinkerer, even if that does lead to that geriatric dream of going to Mars.
This is difficult. Years and years of suffering has made the possibilities of feeling peace, even in the absence of sources of agony, well nigh impossible. Am I doomed to be a prisoner of my emotions forever, unable to feel contentment because I am too busy obsessing over why I failed instead of promoting my future. I feel sad, because people have caused me inhuman harm, and simply ignoring that and living my life now is not easy, I just wanted to feel peace, and now that the possibility is here I ignore it and instead spend my time thinking as to why I have been prevented from feeling it in the past, something, which of course has no answer. All I can do is mourn, perhaps because peace is not really a fundamental human right, even though the pursuit of it is. I must remind myself that I am not strange in feeling this way, for at the end of a bloody war, who in an entire country can claim to feel immediate peace? Such a task is not human, and emotional wounds take time to heal. ...
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