It’s a saddening state of affairs, that it seems to us that ninety percent of our thoughts are redundant, mere noise that does not help us construct our lives. Settling in a routine is the starting point to a healthy life, for if you know where you should be and when, you can then go into the details of what you should do and how. It is remarkable just how little interaction we have with everybody around us, for you expect, that since they are human, that you have touched each others lives, in a way that creates a connection with them such that they are not mere strangers. But we will focus on building our lives, because our life is the only one that we can mould, and, really, helping others is only something achievable when your life is perfect, which is something we are working towards. You are all diligent workers, and I know that when you are driving you are having a thousand thoughts in your heads, mulling and planning how you should live your life, or what opinions you should give. It’s all important, see to it that you are serious, and give secondary importance to money than to information.
This is difficult. Years and years of suffering has made the possibilities of feeling peace, even in the absence of sources of agony, well nigh impossible. Am I doomed to be a prisoner of my emotions forever, unable to feel contentment because I am too busy obsessing over why I failed instead of promoting my future. I feel sad, because people have caused me inhuman harm, and simply ignoring that and living my life now is not easy, I just wanted to feel peace, and now that the possibility is here I ignore it and instead spend my time thinking as to why I have been prevented from feeling it in the past, something, which of course has no answer. All I can do is mourn, perhaps because peace is not really a fundamental human right, even though the pursuit of it is. I must remind myself that I am not strange in feeling this way, for at the end of a bloody war, who in an entire country can claim to feel immediate peace? Such a task is not human, and emotional wounds take time to heal. ...
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