ملكة ٣/٢٠٢٦.
ملكة، شكرا لحياتك على منعي من مأذية نفسي. فالتواضع المفرط مرض، والموازن لزيادة العظمة قد يفيد الأمور. الألقاب سلاح ذو حدين. فتزيد الثقة مفيد إذا هو يراعي القانون والصحة، وتنزيله مهم إذا يمنع الفرد من إهمال علاقاته ووظيفته.
This is difficult. Years and years of suffering has made the possibilities of feeling peace, even in the absence of sources of agony, well nigh impossible. Am I doomed to be a prisoner of my emotions forever, unable to feel contentment because I am too busy obsessing over why I failed instead of promoting my future. I feel sad, because people have caused me inhuman harm, and simply ignoring that and living my life now is not easy, I just wanted to feel peace, and now that the possibility is here I ignore it and instead spend my time thinking as to why I have been prevented from feeling it in the past, something, which of course has no answer. All I can do is mourn, perhaps because peace is not really a fundamental human right, even though the pursuit of it is. I must remind myself that I am not strange in feeling this way, for at the end of a bloody war, who in an entire country can claim to feel immediate peace? Such a task is not human, and emotional wounds take time to heal. ...
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